Thoughts and Dates

During the second meeting of my Woman's Identity class this week, I remembered how strongly I feel about feminism, and I wondered why I had forgotten that until now. Maybe it was joining a sorority or spending my time with people who just don't focus on the subject, but sometime between early high school and now, my feelings on this topic were relegated to the back of my mind. I'm really looking forward to learning more about this topic during the semester.

In other news, I'm also learning that dating is hard for me. I don't know why this is a surprise. I think I had a panic attack before bowling yesterday, which made it extra hard. Anyways, the date was not quite a success, but not quite a failure, either. He called yesterday and asked me to go to a movie and dinner with him on Saturday, and I decided that he gets a third date. I hope it goes better than bowling did, and I keep reminding myself that I don't ever have to make any commitments that I don't feel completely comfortable with. This is probably the only thing that's keeping me from panicking again. Honestly, I don't know why I can't date without panicking. At this point, I'm pretty sure that I could like K a lot, but my fear is really holding me back. I'm going to give it another try, and I'm hoping we'll feel more comfortable with each other. For some reason, I'm very good at being a buddy, but very bad at being a romantic interest.